Cobaan

I just reached KL less than 30 minutes ago. Still penat lagi ni. I went back home last tuesday in a hurry. After talking to my bosses in the morning, they asked me to go back as my mind was not there anymore. It was my dad who was not in his best state of health.

During Chinese New Year's break, he was not exactly well. He convinced me that he would be fine after taking some medicine and I left for KL dengan berat hati. When I reached KL after the holiday, my sister broke the news saying that my dad was admitted to a specialist hospital. I wanted to go back again but she convinced me that my dad was not in a serious condition as the doctor wanted him to stay in hospital just for observation. Nothing to worry about.

I had been calling home every now and then, but failed to speak to my dad as according to my siblings, "Abah penat (lelah). Tak boleh cakap banyak". Siapa tak risau dan bimbang kalau everyday his condition macam tak berubah saja. The doctor said that my dad probably had bronchitis and his prostate got swollen again. But the doctor would examined and run some tests anyhow. Walaupun banyak kerja kat office dan most projects require their first drafts in February, I rushed back home, just to see my dad. As someone said, family comes first.

Alhamdulillah, he is recovering well at home now. Cuma batuk lite-lite and I hope I will sleep better tonight. He will still need to see the doctor for follow ups next week. Cuma masa cheq nak balik tadi, cheq sayu sangat. My dad said to me, "Anak menantu semua jadi susah sebab aku", sambil mengalir airmata. I didn't know what to say. Anak mana yang tak sayu melihat bapa dia mengalir airmata. Emo jap ***pause***

Along the way, I was listening to my MP3 collection in the car and lagu2 Rossa memang buat cheq lagi emo. Cuma satu lagu yang dah lama cheq tak dengaq and menarik perhatian cheq untuk share with you. Let us take a break for a while and enjoy the lyrics.

MAKIN AKU CINTA - ANANG & KRISDAYANTI

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