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Hari-Hari Yang Bermakna

2009-03-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since my last post. I know people out there dok carut kat cheq sebab tak update blog dah lama. Nak kata sebok, sebok la jugak. Nak kata malas, well, malas pun sama banyak. Lets put it this way, sometimes I don't feel like writing anything. Sometimes tu, tergedik2 atas LRT nak balik rumah update blog. Senang cerita, cheq akan update blog as and when I feel like writing something, bley....??

Bulan ni, banyak benda berlaku. Yang paling recent is that my close friend from utara just had his weekend at my place. Sorry na uol sebab cheq ni bukan kaki merayap sangat, so tak bawak uol pi mana2. Asyik dok rumah, tgk TV and makan. Hope you had enough to eat...... lets get fat, gitu. Jangan serik datang lagi. Kalau tak ke mana, we ol sentiasa akan ada di sini.

And not forgetting, I just had my birthday yang ke 29 (yeah right..... matila kena carut lagi) pada 14hb yg lepas. I had a good birthday with org tersayang and close friends. Had some cakes and keropok lekor sempena trip ke Kuantan. I'd been there once long time ago but didn't actually had a good look around. Ala2 sampai pukul 4 pagi, pukul 9 pagi terus headed to Kuala Terengganu. Tak done (bak kata Bard) nak bersiar2. And my 2nd trip ni sempat la tgk Teluk Cempedak (selalu sangat tersasul sebut Guar Cempedak) and Beserah (teringat lagu Amylea, Ku Berserah...... matila AF lagi). Terlebih dahulu nak mintak mahap kat org Kuantan, tadak apa kat tempat hangpa. I had to do a day trip saja, balik tidoq kat KL.

*bodoh tak?? gimrama la kekdahnya........

*Pantai Teluk Cempedak............

*McD Pantai Teluk Cempedak....... having some light snack...... snack ke??

Bulan Februari pulak, pegi ronda2 Melaka during one of the wknds. It's good to get out of KL for a change. Bangun pagi, tatau apa nak buat, terus shoot ke Melaka. Experience yang interesting was, masuk Museum Maritime without realising that we had to pay for it. Strange thing was, no one there to stop us and there was also no signboard at the sides yang kata kena bayaq kalau nak masuk. So mana nak tau kan?? I love freebees.

*Muzium Samudera, Melaka.....

*One of the historical sites in Melaka...... nama apa pun tatau. Tak hengat.....

Cobaan

2009-02-12T16:20:00.003+08:00

I just reached KL less than 30 minutes ago. Still penat lagi ni. I went back home last tuesday in a hurry. After talking to my bosses in the morning, they asked me to go back as my mind was not there anymore. It was my dad who was not in his best state of health.

During Chinese New Year's break, he was not exactly well. He convinced me that he would be fine after taking some medicine and I left for KL dengan berat hati. When I reached KL after the holiday, my sister broke the news saying that my dad was admitted to a specialist hospital. I wanted to go back again but she convinced me that my dad was not in a serious condition as the doctor wanted him to stay in hospital just for observation. Nothing to worry about.

I had been calling home every now and then, but failed to speak to my dad as according to my siblings, "Abah penat (lelah). Tak boleh cakap banyak". Siapa tak risau dan bimbang kalau everyday his condition macam tak berubah saja. The doctor said that my dad probably had bronchitis and his prostate got swollen again. But the doctor would examined and run some tests anyhow. Walaupun banyak kerja kat office dan most projects require their first drafts in February, I rushed back home, just to see my dad. As someone said, family comes first.

Alhamdulillah, he is recovering well at home now. Cuma batuk lite-lite and I hope I will sleep better tonight. He will still need to see the doctor for follow ups next week. Cuma masa cheq nak balik tadi, cheq sayu sangat. My dad said to me, "Anak menantu semua jadi susah sebab aku", sambil mengalir airmata. I didn't know what to say. Anak mana yang tak sayu melihat bapa dia mengalir airmata. Emo jap ***pause***

Along the way, I was listening to my MP3 collection in the car and lagu2 Rossa memang buat cheq lagi emo. Cuma satu lagu yang dah lama cheq tak dengaq and menarik perhatian cheq untuk share with you. Let us take a break for a while and enjoy the lyrics.

MAKIN AKU CINTA - ANANG & KRISDAYANTI

Caramu mencintaiku
Menjauhkan kecurangan
Seperti bintang, yang setia pada bulan

Memegang kukuh janji
Menemani aku sampai mati
Terpasung hati
Tulusmu mendampingi diriku

Makin aku cinta
Cermin sikapmu yang mampu
Meredam rasa keangkuhanku
(Mengerti, memahami cinta)

Caramu memanjakanku
Kau rujuki kesejukan pagi
Memasang hati, tulus aku
Memasrahkan diri

Jangan pernah terbesit hati
Meragukan kesetiaan yang tercurah
Aku dan dirimu, ditakdirkan satu
Langit jadi saksi

Xing Nien Quai Le

2009-01-26T00:00:00.001+08:00

I am currently spending my long holiday at kampung in Kedah. Taking a good break away from work and KL. Di kesempatan ini cheq nak ucapkan pada friends and family, A HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS CHINESE NEW YEAR. May years to come bring good fortune and happiness to all of you.

China - Part 3

2009-01-13T00:33:00.001+08:00

Salut. Terlebih dulu cheq nak ucapkan selamat tahun baru, masehi dan hijrah. Maaf ye cheq dah lama tak update blog ni. Dah bersarang pun. I've been busy with work and personal matters. A lot of things happened to me for the past few weeks, either good or bad. All I can say is, I'm a lot happier now, walaupun schedule untuk year 2009 agak menakutkan. Tapi cheq tak ambik pot sangat. One thing at a time..... I'll manage.

Jom sambung tengok gambar2 from China's trip.

*This is the Imperial Summer Palace where the Emperor spent most of his time during summer. Tempat ni cantik sangat, walaupun tak sebesar The Forbidden City. Kalau you all semua pernah tengok film The Last Emperor, you all akan tahu macamana permaisuri China membesarkan anak dia (pewaris takhta) di istana ni. She spent her time at this palace and had an illicit affair with her bodyguard. Cheq dah lupa citer tu macamana but this film won an Oscar for Best Film back in the late 80s or early 90s (tak ingat). Must get the DVD soon.

*this man-made lake kat Imperial Summer Palace ni agak menakjubkan. Cantik sangat. Time cheq sampai situ, the surface dah membeku tapi they all pecahkan sikit untuk dapatkan oksigen for the fish yang hidup dalam tasik ni.

*cheq fascinated dengan tulisan yang orang dok tulis kat pavement tepi tasik tadi. They all guna brush sebesar penyapu but yet the writing was so neat. The ink used was washable. Entah apa yang ditulis. I'd guess it was a poem. I need an interpreter here.

*Beijing's latest landmark. The Birdnest Stadium and its Olympic Sports Complex. The area was so big and spacious. Ala2 beribu kereta boleh park at this area. Boleh dikatakan dia 5 kali lebih luas than Kompleks Sukan Bukit Jalil. Penat kami berjalan from on spot to another. Very impressive indeed.

*pandangan dalam sebuah masjid di Beijing. From outside, tak nampak macam masjid pun sebab most masjid kat Beijing tadak kubah. Sorry to say, it looked more like a chinese temple than a mosque. Tapi hiasan dalaman dia, very unique. Chinese architecture masih dikekalkan.

*the end of the trip. After spending 7 days in China, it was time to say goodbye. Penat jugak sebab 7 days packed with tour activities. Pi sana sini, cuma malam saja tidoq kesejukan dalam bilik. Heater pun tak terasa warm sangat, kulit extremely dry and the weather outside was also extremely cold. Nak shopping pun penat jugak tawar menawar kalau tak nak kena tipu hidup2 dengan overly-priced goods. However, I quite enjoyed the trip and hope to come back in future. Maybe to some other places in China. Like I always said in the past, there's no better place than home.

*Beijing City International Airport. My luggage kena selungkar dengan airport security sebab masa x-ray ada nampak image tajam2 (manicure sets yang cheq beli banyak2 utk my sisters and friends). After waiting for about 2 hours, we departed and landed at KLIA at about 11.45 pm. KL Express pun dah habis service and my luggage "lost" for a few minutes. When I was just about to sign the report for loss luggage, my trolley bag suddenly appeared from nowhere. Memangla choi sangat hari tu. Tapi Alhamdulillah sebab cheq selamat sampai dan able to tell you the experience here.

China - Part 2

2008-12-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

Tak mengantuk lagi, so let la sambung kongsi gambar.

BEIJING

*reached Beijing at about 6.30 am. Michael (our Chinese tour who speaks Malay very well and knows so much about solat jamak takdim and takhir and yet he's not even a Muslim) dah tunggu dengan setianya di railway station. After breakfast at a local Muslim restaurant, kami dibawa ke Tiananmen Square and passed by Beijing Opera House (see photo). Damn, so chanteq and smooth. So much better than Istana Budaya ibarat kater.

*the historical Tiananmen Square. Pagi2 buta dah ramai tourists. Muka Melayu ramai kat situ, even though we didn't come from the same group. Teringat cheq satu ketika dulu ada the popular news clip pasal students demonstration kat sini dan depa tried to obstruct the kereta kebal from dispersing them away. Scary sangat kalau jadi pisang lenyek time tu.

*Forbidden City. This place was so huge and beautiful. Kalau tak silap cheq, ada 7 gate untuk sampai yang terakhir. Each gate ada building2 yang tertentu which served for different functions and occasions. Dan paras lantai pun ada 7 lapisan. The reason being, susah untuk orang luar cuba masuk ke istana. And istana tempat emperor resided pun ada 29 rooms and he would sleep in different rooms every night. That shows that the emperor sebenarnya penakut jugak. Takut kena bunuh katernya. And ironically, he had 3000 concubines. Talk about kuat nafsu kan....??

*pintu terakhir kat belakang istana. And through this door, the family members akan keluar masuk kalau nak ke mana2. And the potential concubines pun akan masuk ikut pintu ni for the emperor to scan-scan katernya and she would never leave the palace again kalau emperor dah suka, even though the emperor subsequently died. Hmm....... janda kertu la jadinya. (Note : I love this photo too)

*Benhai Park. Tempat emperor and family pi sembahyang kat temple di sini. This park chanteq sangat and even now, people are queuing up to buy the monthly pass untuk sembahyang kat sini. Tasik masa time cheq sampai sini tengah membeku tapi tak la sampai boleh ice-skate lagi.

*a giant crystal ball at a local crystal shop. Dok tilik nasib, kot2 year 2009 boleh bawak lebih 'ong' in my life.

*posing sat bersama2 replicas of Terracotta warriors. Maybe someday boleh tengok the actual ones kat China lagi, InsyaAllah.......

*Great Wall of China. My dream finally came true, but sadly enough tak seperti yang cheq idamkan. I got to see it alone, instead of with my loved one. Tak pa la, tadak rezeki. One interesting fact, kat sini banyak padlocks yang dikuncikan pada rantai2 besi di tepi dinding. The reason being, Chinese people believe that kalau kita kuncikan our padlock kat situ, our love akan bersemadi selama2nya dan seutuh tembok ini (*tetiba teringat lagu Ramlah Ram and her blinking dress). I didn't actually leave my padlock there but I did leave something behind at the Great Wall. Semoga kasihku bersemi selama2nya (ohh payung.....!!) and hopefully someday when I return to the place again, the thing will still be there.

*my climbing partners, Sharifah & Onie. Dengan depa ni la cheq termengah2 naik ke satu point (macam nak mamp...!!) dan melayakkan cheq to claim a certificate for it. See... how steep and uneven the steps are.

*something to be proud of and I had to pay for it (damn....!!)

*I slipped and fell at this place, due to an icy/frosty pavement. And my back has been aching since then. Harap2 tadak apa2...... I may get my back checked one of these days. Bak kata pepatah, tempat yang jatuh lagi dikenang (true enough)...... How ironic.

*tak tau dia tulis apa. Maybe someone can read it for me :)

**bersambung in China - Part 3

China - Part 1

2008-12-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

Ni hao (hello). It's good to be back. I've noticed that there have been some remarks made towards my last post. I don't want to add much to it. In short, I know what I did and didn't do. That's all. Silence speaks a thousand words. Lantak la orang nak cakap apa.

Anyway, I'm back now. Alhamdulillah. It was quite a good trip, though I didn't quite enjoy it as much as I did during my holiday in Langkawi back in May. Nevertheless, I've seen and experienced a lot of things in China. It will be another experience in life that I will treasure. I am not really in the mood to tell it all at this juncture but I am attaching some of the photos taken there for my friends' viewing. Let the photos tell you the story :

SHANGHAI

*Pudong Airport, Shanghai. Departed KLIA at 1.40am and arrived in Shanghai at about 6.30 am. There is no time difference between these two countries. My first time setting foot on Chinese soil and it was freaking cold (range between -6 to 6 degree celsius). With very basic knowledge in Mandarin (e.g. xie xie (thank you), zai jian (goodbye), bu keqi (you're welcome), bu yao (don't want), duibuqi (sorry), wo yao jiu cesuo (I want to go to toilet) etc.), I was looking forward to the tour at this point of time.

*upon arrival, we headed to the "Bund" (the famous waterfront in Shanghai). Boleh nampak Shanghai World Trade Centre, Shanghai TV Tower and other skyscrapers yg dipisahkan oleh Huanpu River. In short, the skyscrapers represent how ambitious the Chinese government is to turn China into a developed country. Semuanya out of the world punya design. As a result of the massive construction and flyover yang sampai 5 tingkat, it was dusty here. Duduk sini boleh pendek umur rasanya.

*opposite the "Bund" was the "Bank Street". Semua bangunan colonial peninggalan orang putih diduduki oleh bank2 terkemuka di China (either local or foreign banks). At this place also, cheq di-approached oleh a group of local girls yang fascinated with our "alien" faces. Mula2 ingat nak suruh ambik gambaq dia, rupa2nya depa nak ambik gambaq dengan cheq. Penuh ni kiri kanan diapit oleh not so gorgeous looking girls (hiks.....). I was wondering, cheq ni celebrity ka? Nothing of me resembles Justin Timberlake or even Andy Lau. Heran...... (!!!???)

*posing jap kat mailbox depan a local muslim restaurant after lunch.

*2nd day in Shanghai, shopping trip to the famous Nanjing Street. As it was on sunday, berpuluh ribu orang keluar shopping at that time. Gila akak barb punya ramai orang. That street cuma punya kedai2 & mall yang ada nama. Tapi kat alley2 tu ada kedai2 kecik yang penuh dengan penipuan. The trick is to get someone (normally a female accomplice to attract tourists like us with "Hello sir, you want bag? watch?? iPod?? iPhone??" (of course, in a very bad English sampai tak paham dia cakap apa). Pastu ajak pi ke kedai dia and once you enter, the door akan dilock and a whole bunch of gangster-like guys ugut you beli something not worth buying. Luckily, I didn't get into the trap tapi one of us dipaksa beli imitation iPhone yang tak elok langsung for 1200 yuan. A tip for you guys the next time you go there.

SUZHOU (pronounced Su-Cho)

*we left Shanghai on the 2nd day in China by bus. After a 2-hour journey, sampai la kat Suzhou and it was already dark at 6 pm. Personally, I prefer this city which was well-planned and organised. It was like visiting Putrajaya tapi kat China. Industrial area pun businessmen from Singapore yang helped to develop once upon a time.

*photos taken from the government owned silk factory. I bought the kungfu master shirt I long for all this while. I've talked to my darling before of getting this shirt tapi tak sangka sampai ke China pulak dapat belinya. Yang penting it's pure silk. Meletop......... (pic not included).

*photos taken along the canals kat Suzhou. It is famous for its man-made canals and it was once called Little Venice of the East. So romantica de amour ibarat kater naik gondola along these canals waktu2 winter macam ni. Kecut telor siot....... I'm not joking. Kena search for "it" kalau pi toilet. Kecut segals........ ibarat kater.

*Surging Waves Pavillion was built in 1044 AD and the garden is the oldest classical garden in Suzhou. I am not much into gardens, so tak pandai sangat nak appreciate this place. Cheq hanya tengok batu2 laut yang tua diletak dalam garden ni and old chinese houses yang mencecah berabad usianya. Look see look see and snappy snappy sajork. Next.....!!!!

*being in the same species as Panda, cheq gian nak tokak batang buluh ni. So serene sangat kat sini. Someone mentioned macam dalam video clip Atilia - Sangkar. Ya ka...??

*merenung luar jendela teringat orang jauh...................

*lost in Suzhou (and translation).

*leaving Suzhou at 8.30 pm for Beijing on the Night Soft Sleeper Train. Kena pulak share dengan 2 local people, sorang jants dan sorang betins. Macam ayam dan itik, aku tengok kau, kau tengok aku. In the end, dengaq iPod dan terus ke wonderland. Excuse me for the snoring........ what an experience. (Note : I love this photo walaupun gelap. The image nampak unique)

** bersambung in China - Part 2

Siaran Tergendala Sebentar........

2008-12-13T00:00:00.002+08:00

By the time this post got published, I would be on my way to Shanghai. I'm taking a few days off and berjalan2 tengok negeri orang. Cheq tak kan bersiaran selama seminggu. InsyaAllah kalau umur panjang, kita akan berjumpa semula. Diharapkan this trip akan berjalan dengan baik dan selamat. Jika tidak, cheq mohon maaf di atas segala salah silap, terlanjur kata serta perbuatan selama ni.

Buat insan tersayang....... I love you more than words can say, and this is for you, Yang :

"Stay The Same" - Joey McIntyre

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

Back To Basic

2008-12-09T19:25:00.000+08:00

Mula2 cheq pindah ke KL ni, I just brought my clothings and my ownself. My former housemate, who happens to be a relative, tak bagi bawak apa2 sebab he got everything. So, basically cheq ni agak senang la sebab everything dah ada dalam rumah tu. But that was just a temporary arrangement. I had informed him that I would be staying for a while until I got my own place. He didn't mind. In fact, when I wanted to move out, he said the house would be quiet without me. Sigh....... susah jugak kan? Duduk sana jauh sikit and the feeling of menumpang rumah orang, somehow made me uneasy.

Ever since I moved to a new place (closer to work place and easy access to food - ini yang penting. Hehehe.....), I've been living on basic. No proper bed, closet, TV, washing machine etc. I don't really mind as I used to live in dormitories back in school and university. Bukan susah sangat kan? Cuma dok tunggu another housemate who is yet to move in. From what I gather, he has got almost everything. Cepatla........ tak larat handwash ni. I need a washing machine and a kettle. Nak minum kopi.... hehehe.

Okay, let us take a tour around my room. Thanks to Carrefour, Jusco, Giant, IKEA, Nilai 3, Aussino and Ace Hardware Store, Ikano Power Centre di atas barang2nya (bukan tajaan ye?? I purchased them myself).

Ok tak..............?? Home sweet home.

Selamat Beraya

2008-12-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

Orang dah sibuk balik kampung masa cheq balik keja. Reached my rented house at around 8 pm. Badan letih, kepala serabut. People had been giving me pressure all day long. To add to my misery, my own dad called up to ask whether I would be coming back home or not. Sigh.........

All week I had been busy with my work. The three main projects dah berjalan dalam masa 3 bulan ni. Hari2 my time at the office occupied dengan benda ni, endless meetings, ad-hoc projects etc. I casually asked my Head for a day off next tuesday, a day after Raya Haji. My intention was to visit my dad kat kampung. But that dick-Head of mine refused to grant me the day off, since a meeting for my project is scheduled next tuesday too. Then I wrote to the project manager to reschedule the meeting but sadly to say, it was not entertained.

So tak pa lah........ f*ck it. I was not in the mood to argue with anybody. Tried so hard to complete as much as I could for the past 5 days. Suddenly at 6 pm, that dick-Head of mine was so-called sympathetic to me and allowed me to take that day off I had previously asked for. Hey...... f*ck you. There's a catch to it. Before I was allowed to go, I had to complete this and that. And a lot of things to be summited next week.

I rather stay in KL for raya than going back home. If I do go home, my mind won't be at ease, thinking of work. I need to complete it before my long leave end of next week. Normally, I would be looking forward to my holiday trips, but not this time. I have less than a week to my China's trip but it seems like there's no excitement to it. Firstly, for an obvious reason, I have to go without my loved one as I planned earlier. Secondly, the life I'm leading right now is wearing me out.

I had to get out of the house for a while, just to get some air. Ironically, I ended up at KLCC....... had dinner and catched a movie titled "Bolt". Kelakar nak mampus. Nasib baik la best walaupun filem animation saja. Now it's almost 2.30 am and I'm still freshly awake. I have the thumbdrive brought back from the office, considering whether to continue working or not. To my dad, I'm sorry for not going back. I had to make a decision. I will go back home after my China's trip, hopefully. But for now, I'll be here for the next three days and back to work on tuesday. To the rest of you, enjoy whatever you do during raya. Pardon my vulgarity.

Kau Yang Amat Ku Sayang

2008-12-03T00:12:00.000+08:00

Kau yang amat ku sayang
Yang amat ku cinta
Bersemadi di jiwaku

Ku mengharap kasihmu
Bertakhta di hati
Untuk selamanya

Tak mungkin daku lupakan
Kenangan manis kau dan aku
Kau bagaikan permata di hati ini

Bagai irama dan lagu
Melodi yang menyentuh kalbu
Kita bersatu melayari cinta
Abadi..

Hanya untukmu
Laguku ini
Isi hati ku
Dalam melodi nan indah

Lirik nan syahdu
Curahan perasaanku
Bagaikan sesuci embunan pagi

Kau menyinari hidupku
Dengan kasih sayangmu
Untuk selamanya

Kau yang amat ku rindu
Yang amat ku perlu
Tiada lain di hatiku

Ku rindukan belaian mu
Tanpamu di sisi
Ku kan kesepian...

Happy Birthday, Yang........

2008-11-30T02:05:00.000+08:00

28th of November marks an important date in my life. It was the date my loved one was born. Every year I make a point untuk sampaikan ucapan padanya. Only this year, I was lucky enough to celebrate hari penting ini bersamanya since I'm now living in KL. Untuk insan tersayang, Happy Birthday to you. I hope you had a good birthday and may everyday brings you happiness and success.

Semoga you suka dengan pemberian tak seberapa ini. Since I know both of us like perfume, I got this one especially for you.

I sneaked out from the office at 4.45 pm sharp on friday. Started my journey to Bandar Sunway at 6.15 pm. Tapi got stucked at traffic jam for one hour before I managed to reach NPE. My luck was good enough sebab dapat parking dengan mudah dan managed to reach Sunway Pyramid on time. The dinner was at Ole-Ole Bali Restaurant. It was a spontaneous decision. While waiting for orang yang diraikan, cheq dok tengok2 directory kat situ and spotted the name Ole-Ole Bali kat situ. Teringat pulak a post by a fellow blogger in his blog on this place. So I chose this place masa tu jugak.

The specialty drink kat situ, iced barley lime. Very refreshing indeed.

Deep fried Cuming-Cuming or commonly known as fried kalamari.

The main course was Nasi Campur Ole Ole. Quite banyak lauk, so we decided to share this instead. I hope you enjoyed the dinner. Nothing fancy, but as you said, to live in KL we have to go frugal sometimes. Enjoy the rest of the weekend, Yang. I love you......... then, now and forever.

Kopi ais and sagoo pudding at Boraque Kopitiam, Setapak with Man who is also in town for the weekend. Dessert kekdahnya, selepas puas berjalan kat night market di Taman Danau Kota :)

See Ya.........

2008-11-14T01:10:00.001+08:00

I've had enough. For the past few weeks, I had been stressful and not getting much rest. I reached home at about 10 pm every single day. Workload had never been reduced. It kept getting more and more. On average, I had 10 meetings per week and personally, I felt they were just a waste of time. Nothing much had been accomplished. Kalau tidak kerana that controlling bitch yang being nosy nak tahu semua benda yang kami buat, I would have not attended any of those meetings.

And it didn't stop there. I had to bring back some work to do at home. Sleeping at 1 or 2 am is becoming a trend now. What a f**ked up life.....!!! Even today, I tried to speed up a bit tapi still balik pukul 9 malam. I submitted my annual leave application about 2 weeks ago. It only got verbally approved less than 4 hours ago. F**king hell....!! And it was just for 2 f**king days. I even had to fight for it. My superior was reluctant to let me go. "What if something goes wrong", he said. "Screw you.....!!"

Finally, I'm free to go........... I'm leaving for home in the morning. It has been a while (bukan lagu Britney "Break The Ice", okay??).... I miss my hometown..... my Dad, my siblings..... (and definitely, my ahem ahem). Hopefully, I'll be okay when I return to KL. And I'm moving to another place soon. God..... there are so many things to do. Ujian Ilahi agaknya.... sabar je lah.

Lara

2008-11-06T23:07:00.001+08:00

Di balik rona ceria
Terpaling mendungnya
Bagai pelangi yang pudar warna

Serinya diambil
Segala semua
Terumbang-ambing cari arahku
Bekalan rindu hancur dan berderai
Yang kuidamkan kini terlerai

Serahkan kembali cinta itu
Yang pernah kau sanjungi dahulu
Apalah erti sandiwara ini
Hari-hari yang bakal bersua
Pasti kosong tidak bermakna
Khabarkan sahaja pada semua
Akulah lara

Seperti tak percaya
Luka masih ada
Bila kau hilang rasa derita

Mungkin kekal begitu
Siapalah tahu
Kan aku cari penawar pilu
Bisakah ikan lemas di dalam lautan
Begitulah aku penasaran

Pencarian erti diselangi mimpi
Kerana kasmaran cinta aku menderita
Berikan ku jalan
Biar karma sahaja
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Kafe Kampung Aunty Aini

2008-11-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine, KC has been talking about this place since I was still in Kedah. He said that if I ever came to KL, he would take me to this place someday. Even masa bulan posa pun dia dok cakap nak pi makan kat sini lepas raya. Cheq ni of course la, suka makan kan. So I had been waiting for him to take me there. Both of us kadang2 quite adventurous sikit kalau pasal makan. Sanggup travel jejauh tak hengat ni.

Fair enough, it is in Nilai....!! But it was worth the trip. Masakan kampung ibarat kater. I'm a kampung boy, suka la makanan macam ni. Lets look at some of the photos taken :

*from top clockwise, ayam kampung goreng, kerabu pucuk paku dengan kerang, pinggan nasi cheq (hehehe.....) and gulai lemak cili api daging salai. Yang nampak tangan tu ialah KC (wave to the readers, my friend....)

*sambal tumis petai dengan udang galah dan sambal belacan (with ulams). Sebenarnya, cheq dulu tak reti makan sambal belacan. Setelah 30 tahun hidup di muka bumi ni, cheq tak reti makan sambal belacan walaupun di kampung, arwah mak dan kakak selalu prepare sambal (bukan kekwat perasan orang puteh okay??). Hanya setelah "the love of my life" yang ajar cheq makan, cheq rasa macam "hey, not bad lah.... walaupun tak tahan pedas, cheq suka" (gitew...!!). Banyak yang cheq belajar daripada dia. Teringat sangat..........

*tapai pulut with vanilla ice-cream. Kat kampung, whenever my sis buat tapai, I would rush out to the nearest 7-E or supermarket for vanilla ice-cream. Sedap la..... and teringat jugak si Dia yang makan tapai ni di kampung cheq........

*posing sekejap depan cermin lepas makan banyak tadi. KC, if I get fat again, I'll blame you. Huhuhu...... just joking. It was a really nice dinner. Thank you very much. We'll go again someday. Kawan2 Penang, ingat na, if you are up to it, KC and I will take you guys pi sana. Kena buat reservasi dulu sebab ramai orang.

*ni pulak apa yang cheq makan for lunch tadi. Lauk gulai lemak cili api siput sedut, paru (a.k.a. kelempong for oghang utara) goreng and sayur kacang botol. Sedap siput sedut tu...... nostalgia *sigh*

Deepavali's Weekend

2008-10-27T18:00:00.000+08:00

Sunyi semula........... After spending 3 nights at my place, my best friends from Penang dah pun meninggalkan KL ni. They arrived at the very wee hour on Friday night (actually dah pagi Sabtu pun). Man, Cha'ein and Zin decided to come here for the long weekend. Zin was actually heading home tapi since dah lewat, dia pun tidoq sini sajork.

Saturday morning dah bangun awal2 untuk breakfast di Bangi (kelass tak?? breakfast melanggar sempadan daerah..... boleh consider jauh jugak dari tempat cheq ni). Tapi the journey tu berbaloi sebab dapat makan nasi kerabu dan nasi dagang yang sedap sangat di Kg Abu Bakar Baginda. I was born kat pantai timur, so I'm used to eating food dari sana. To me, makanan kat kedai ni memang sedap. And my friends pun agreed with me. Okay, this is not a cheap promo, tapi kalau ada masa, you all pi la makan kat sana. Call Zin if you need assistance sebab dekat kpg dia... ooops.

Hari yang sama, my sis was also in town. Kena la jugak entertain dia ibarat kater. Harap2 dia puas hati la sebab tercapai jugak impian dia untuk membeli tudung from Sri Munawarah Design kat TTDI. Kalau tadak adik dia sorang ni, tak dapat la my sis and friend shopping tudung2 impian they all from there (note : I had to find the place 2 weeks prior to her trip here, so that we wouldn't be sesat on the day itself..... over tak??). And my sis spent RM1000 plus for tudung saja pada hari....... talk about gila shopping kan...??

Kalau my friends tak datang, I wouldn't sampai rumah another friend, Syed tu. Dapat la jugak melawat rumah dia dan jumpa anak2 yang dia comel tu. I'm happy to see a friend who is doing so well di samping keluarga. And special thanks to Syed and Bid, terima kasih sebab masak bihun, nasi impit, kuah kacang, rendang and the lovely jelly semata2 utk kami. Kenyang sangat hari tu. Cheq memang suka makan dan macam tahu2 saja, kan?? And cheq also got the chance to meet up with Miza and Kamel after living in KL for 2 months. Kalau they all tak mai dari Penang, tak jumpa la kita no....?? Camtu la... hehehe.

Sunday was also packed with activities. For the first time ever, cheq sampai kat Aquaria, KLCC. Tourist sangat kan.....?? Bila masa lagi cheq nak pi kalau tak dengan someone. It was not bad all. I've never been to other famous aquariums, so tak boleh la nak compare. It was almost a perfect trip, kalau tak my boss tetiba call nak pinjam access card masuk office. Benci sangat, cuti2 nak kena bercakap pasal keja. I had a good time at Aquaria and here are some of the photos taken :

After Aquaria, it was time to shop shop shop :) At first we all just jalan2 cuci mata sajork. Tapi ended up membeli belah jugak la kat KLCC, IKEA dan Ikano. And cheq pun terpikir yang cheq akan pi holiday tak lama lagi, tangan pun makin gatai nak berbelanja (*matila). So after spending a few hours here and there, cheq beli benda2 berikut :

Nampaknya cheq agak excited nak pi holiday ni. So far cheq dah nekad nak pi, booking semua dah buat. I can't stand of being depressed and lonely all the time. I have to try to make myself happy..... and if possible, my loved ones too. Walaupun keja banyak, tak suka with my current job and having personal problems, cheq cuba sedaya upaya pamper myself with something I like to do. Sesusah mana pun hidup, we have to make the best of out it. Call for help if you have to.

After working for 12 years, for the first time cheq terpikir nak buat sesuatu yang unthinkable sebelum ni. I've talked to some close friends and they gave their opinions. Whatever I choose to do, they'll support me. I have not been happy living in KL. I may need to make a big decision which I'm not sure whether it is the right thing to do. Home is calling me and I will answer to that call if I have to. To friends, thanks for listening. And to Man, Cha'ein and Zin, thanks for making my weekend an enjoyable one. Do come again..............

Hujan

2008-10-21T20:35:00.000+08:00

Nihao (hello in Mandarin or literally means you good...?? Sempena holiday in China nanti..... oops). Cheq dah dua hari berulang-alik ke Shah Alam. As I said, cheq ni sebok dengan internal ISO compliance checking kat our rep offices satu Malaysia. But as a coordinator, cheq yang tentukan siapa pi mana etc. I was supposed to go to Melaka and Seremban too, but my boss overruled my decision. Keji tak...?? Nak jimat cost katernya..... (sudehhhhh!!!). So I had to send someone from southern region instead. Mencik taw....!!!

Anyway, I quite enjoy doing the auditing/compliance checking. I may not be an auditor by profession, cheq rasa seronok la checking keja2 yang orang lain buat, samada depa ikut rules and procedures that have been set or not. Or in other words, it's fun to be "someone hated by others". Matila statement........ Seriously, it's not for us to find faults. It is our job to ensure that all records are kept in order and to promote a systematic working environment, bley...?? Suddenly, cheq macam eager nak jadi auditor. I may consider a career change in future ni..... who knows kan?

Sepanjang dua hari travelling to Shah Alam, hujan turun lebat sebelah petang. Tension jugak sebab dah la jam kat industrial area Shah Alam tu, orang pulak kelam kabut nak balik tengah2 hujan ni. I was using KESAS highway. So boleh tengok massive jam kat area Proton-Hicom junction dan also Persimpangan Kewajipan (Subang Jaya). Terasa teringin nak makan murtabak Singapore kat USJ Taipan tapi bila tengok jalan nak keluar highway pun dah jam gila, I had to pass..... gitu. Terus je balik rumah makan roti Gardenia instead, boleh...??

Sempena musim hujan ini cheq teringat kisah lalu yang jugak berlaku di waktu hujan. Every moment of it, sentiasa melekat kat kepala hotak cheq ni sampai la ni. So let us start singing this song :

HUJAN - Sudirman

Hujan yang turun bagaikan mutiara
Berkilau bersinar berkerdipan
Subur menghijau bumi terbentang
Dan bayu berpuput lembut

Cinta yang bersemi
Diwaktu hujan turun
Menyirami ketandusan hati
Dan hujan turut mengiringi
Engkau pergi...

Selembut hujan bercurahan
Begitulah cinta ini
Semesra bumi yang disirami
Begitulah hati ini

Hujan yang turun bersama air mata
Bersama pedih, bersama rindu
Kau datang dan kau pergi jua
Rindu lagi...

Okaylah you all, cheq nak buat benda lain, apa yang patut. Perut pun lapaq ni. Zhu ni guo yige haotian (have a good day in Mandarin). Zai jian (goodbye).

Sepi

2008-10-19T02:30:00.000+08:00

Call me ketinggalan zaman, I don't care. I just bought and watched the DVD "Sepi". Selepas cheq tonton filem "Cinta" arahan Kabir Bhatia yang touching tu kat cinema a few years ago, cheq rasa berminat nak follow his next film. Walaupun filem sepi ni dah keluaq kat panggung months ago (cheq tak kan pi tengok movie sorang2), baru malam ni cheq berpeluang nak tengok filem ketiga dia ni (after "Love" - the Indonesian version of Cinta).

At first, cheq ingat the storyline ada similarity dengan Cinta tapi bila dah start tengok, memang totally different. I don't want to comment much about the storyline tapi what I can summarisekan ialah best gilerrrrrr..... very touching. I haven't had a tear dah lama. Biaq la orang nak kata cheq ni hati kering, tapi at the end of the show ada jugak teardrop on my cheek. (*matila emo...... tapi ada aku kesah...??)

Apa yang menarik yang cheq nak share ialah bait2 sajak yang ada dalam filem ni. Very touching, very personal.

"Bisikku pada bulan,
kembalikan temanku,
kekasihku,
syurgaku................................."

Good night you all..........................

This Used To be My Playground

2008-10-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

Sempena perceraian Madonna dan Guy Ritchie, mari kita hayati lagu ini.

This used to be my playground
This used to be my childhood dream
This used to be the place I ran to
Whenever I was in need
Of a friend
Why did it have to end
And why do they always say

Don't look back
Keep your head held high
Don't ask them why
Because life is short
And before you know
You're feeling old
And your heart is breaking
Don't hold on to the past
Well that's too much to ask

No regrets
But I wish that you
Were here with me
Well then there's hope yet
I can see your face
In our secret place
You're not just a memory
Say goodbye to yesterday
Those are words I'll never say

This used to be my playground
This used to be our pride and joy
This used to be the place we ran to
That no one in the world could dare destroy

This used to be our playground
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
I wish you were standing here with me

This used to be our playground
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
The best things in life are always free
Wishing you were here with me

Impianku

2008-10-12T02:38:00.001+08:00

The Great Wall of China. I have always been fascinated by this Chinese fortification that is claimed to be one of the seven wonders of world. I had secretly made plans to visit this man-made structure with my loved one in the past, with a hope that it would do wonders to our relationship too. Nampaknya itu belum menjadi kenyataan buat masa ni. Now that I'm back to being alone, I will have to make this dream come true no matter what. As some of you might have known, I am a very determined person. If I dream of something, I will work hard to make it happen. So, insyaAllah, I'll be there soon samada cheq bersendirian atau berteman.

Di dalam kesibukan di pejabat serta hal peribadi, cheq sudah determine akan pergi bercuti sebelum tahun 2008 ni berakhir. The destination chosen is definitely China (apart from Paris...... I wish to visit Paris someday and I even learn French... hehehe). Kalau tadak aral melintang cheq akan pergi China bulan Disember ni. Tak kira la boss nak approve cuti ka dak, I've already made the booking. Ada aku kesah....?? *matila....... awai2 dah tahana tak hengat. The package will include tour to Beijing and Shanghai, with an overnight train journey between these two cities. Although my Mandarin sucks and my Hokkien is a bit rusty, tak kira la kan. Bukannya cheq nak buat public speaking ke apa. Shopping will definitely be fun with "tunjuk2" and tekan calculator for bargaining. Excitednya.............. Well, this is something to look forward to. At least my anticipated hard work in October and November will be rewarded with this 7-day holiday.

Satu lagi perkara yang ditunggu2 is that I may be moving to a new place next month. Somewhere a bit closer to KL city centre. I've been to the new place with my future housemates and I don't have much to complain about. My housemates pun tak kesah, ok jer. One of them, cheq dah kenai for quite sometime and the other, well orang utara jugak. Lepas ni rabung la bersembang kat balcony. Hampaq tikaq, dok hisap rokok sambil bukak loghat masing2. The place itself is new. Tak ramai orang lagi. Hope everything goes well, fingers crossed.

It is now 2.38 am tapi tak rasa mengantuk. And the radio is playing lagu raya Aishah, Pulanglah Di Hari Raya (or something like that). Tetiba teringat kat someone and kampung pulak, kan?? Hmmm....... I miss home and my bantal peluk. And I miss my own house yang ditinggalkan tak berpenghuni di Kedah. Cheq akan balik jugak nanti.......... sebab nak ambik my winter clothing. Yay........ hey Mr DJ, put the record on. Holiday...... celebrate........ (hehehe marah Madonna tak bayaq royalty). Okayla........ zai-jian (goodbye in Mandarin).

Sebok

2008-10-09T23:18:00.006+08:00

Cheq sibuk sangat minggu ni. In actual fact, I'll be a little bit busy this month and maybe next month too. Projects dah start jalan this month and on top of that, there will be some auditing work to do next week onwards. I've never learned any auditing during my varsity years, so this will be something new to me. Nasib baik la tak kena pi jauh2 kan, around this area saja. Susah jugak nak maintain ISO certification ni. Kejap2 nak kena buat internal compliance checking. Being the coordinator, matila cheq ibarat kater.

Ni pun baru balik dari makan2 kat luar dengan member. Setelah lama kenal a fellow blogger, HuggyTeddy, baru tadi cheq jumpa dia for meal. Sebelum ni pernah terspotted dia kat A&W PJ tapi tak sempat tegur. So this time baru la dapat sit down and sembang face to face. Thanks Teddy (also) for dinner. Sedap food kat Wang Solo tu. Next time it will be on me pulak, okay?

This weekend ada open house invitation tapi rasa macam malas nak bersosial ramai2 ni. Rasa macam nak duduk rumah, catch up with my sleep again. Lagipun open housenya jauh bebenor. Sure la cheq ni tersesat2 punya. Okayla u all semua. Cheq nak pi layan my kawan baik, Marlboro Lights. As I said, I'll be quite busy. So kalau lama tak blogging tu, jumpa di lain siaran. Ta ta......

Happy F***ing Raya To Me

2008-09-30T02:23:00.000+08:00

Itinerary for raya :

1) wake up late
2) eat whatever is in the kitchen
3) smoke endlessly
4) TV
5) sleep

To all, have a better raya and a happy life.

RUANG RINDU - LETTO

Dedaun yang ikut mengalir lembut
Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata
Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta
Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

Jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia
Terasa hangat oh didalam hati
Kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu
Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi

Tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat
Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat
Ku saat itu takut mencari makna
Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada

Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja
Semua kutrima apa adanya
Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam
Di ruang rindu kita bertemu

Notasi Di Malam Hari - Part Deux

2008-09-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

A friend was in town and I took the opportunity to drive around, tried new routes and new places. Before that, during the weekdays, I had to be at Damansara to assist with the trainings. My first time driving to a place with a very confusing road systems. Nasib baik sampai jugak ke destinasi yang dituju. My new job function requires me to conduct trainings as and when they are needed. For a start, my first session was just a 15-minute briefing during a half-day training. It went on just fine and it was quite a nerve-wrecking in the beginning as I'd never trained a group of people before. Nak tak nak kena buat jugak kan, and the following day, it was much easier for me.

My weekend was not as boring as before. We went out for meals a lot for the past couple of days. Buka puasa la, sahur la etc. Biasala kalau kawan datang sini, takkan nak duduk rumah saja, kenalah bawak kuar makan, jalan2 etc. Kat rumah pun bukan ada apa sangat nak makan (although my housemate and his friend cooked some delicious cuisines for buka puasa). The three of us kuar makan melanggar sempadan kawasan ibarat kater. Dan di situ jugaklah cheq bumped into some familiar faces which I wish tak kan selalu terserempak kan? Pegi PJ, kami jumpa seseorang dengan kawan2nya and pegi Sunway pun, jumpa lagi orang lain pulak. I have nothing to be scared of, as I have not done anything wrong. It's just that our conversation suddenly terbantut bila ternampak orang lain yang you don't wish to see there. Hehehe..... Pastu dok pandang2 kita as if kita tengah buat salah besar like drug dealings or something. Sentap tau nak buka puasa pun tak senang. Maybe pandang cheq sebab cheq pakai like macam nak pegi pasar saja, as compared to they all yang tengah berdating berhias diri nak impress each other tu. Huhuhu.... *matila laser tak hengat.

In fact, malam ni pun cheq baru balik dari Restoren Rebung di Bangsar tu, kepunyaan Chef Ismail. I had a lovely buffet meal, sampai tak larat nak jalan balik ke kereta. Matila kalau hari2 buka puasa makan buffet macam tu. Sorry ya, no pics taken. Cheq ni dah biasa makan food kat bazaar ramadan aje tau. Ala2 beli apa yang perlu saja. Sahur pun tak bangun sebab malas dan if cheq makan sahur pun, I can't seem to doze off easily after that. So thank you Shah and KC for the "jalan2 cari makan" trip. I hope it doesn't spoil my diet programme. *Matila cindai........

A few friends claimed that I have slimmed down. Well, there is no specific diet that I practise. I have been consuming food macam biasa saja, mungkin the quantity dah reduced sikit. Apa2 pun I always take it positively. Kalau nak cakap makan hati, cheq memang makan hati but life still goes on. I am a man of my words and I try to keep to my promises. I have promised someone that I will slim down after Hari Raya. It looks like I have progressed tremendously (suker... suker... clap3X). Physically, I may be changing but emotionally, I am still the same person. Whatever that means.

Talking about Hari Raya, I can foresee myself spending Hari Raya in KL. So orang2 utara, kalau cheq tak balik raya, harap maaf. Lain raya, mungkin ada rezeki lagi. Bye for now.

Notasi Di Malam Hari

2008-09-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

Kalau diturutkan hati, badan binasa. Itu yang cheq pegang selama ni. I have not been happy. I may smile and laugh at jokes but deep inside, Allah saja yang tahu. Happiness come and go and I can't seem to make myself perfectly happy these days. Segala apa yang cheq usahakan tidak bertahan lama, mungkin salah diri cheq sendiri atau mungkin tidak. Seriously I'm clueless and I do not know what to think anymore. I can only hope that one of these days, things will go my way. At times, I wonder whether my decision to move to KL was a sane idea or not...... wallahualam.

Perasaan duka terubat bila one of my closest friends, Man decided to spend the weekend in KL with me. He has been my confidant semenjak dua menjak ni. Walaupun dia sampai hampir jam 2 pagi di Puduraya, cheq yang tak tau jalan keluar ke Puduraya tu cuba pandu kereta ditemani my housemate Shxxxx and another friend Axxxx. Rupanya tak lah susah sangat, cuma 15 minit saja. It was a matter of finding the right route there.

Hari sabtu, kami dua orang started our adventure memandu di sekitar Lembah Kelang. Pegi ke Kajang la..... Sentul la (ke rumah Jxxxxxx) and finally ke IKEA/Ikano/The Curve. Saja nak menghabiskan cuti hujung minggu berjalan2 and shopping (tahap ala kadar....hehehe). And we ended up buka puasa at Dome, of all places kan? The next day pulak tatau mana nak pi, kami explore pulak the way to The Pavillion. Walaupun parking mahal nak mampus, tapi alang2 dah sampai kat situ, redah saja la. Kami bukanlah dalam league kaki shopping barang mahal2, tapi dah ada tetamu mai jauh2 tu bawaklah pi tempat yang lain sikit. Tak kan nak pi Carrefour saja kot kan?

*antara DVD yang cheq beli kat The Pavillion, Christina Aguilera Back To Basics : Live And Down Under. Yet to khatam this concert but the first few songs memang menarik. She's simply superb.

*I used to have this concert on video tape which I bought in the UK masa study dulu. Balik sini, tape ala2 naik fungus dan terus tak boleh main. So, I bought this DVD la ni (rated 15 okay) and this is one of her best concerts ever.

*finally, we got the chance to taste the so claimed delicious donuts. Masa cheq pi Pavillion dgn member2 dan ahem ahem, the queue was ridiculously long, even at wee hours. So this time queue tak panjang sangat and it felt odd sebab we all beli donuts tgh2 hari waktu bulan posa. Tapi kami posa okay....?? They look pretty yummy tapi taste biasa2 saja. Better sikit dari Dunkin' Donut.

*I'm going nuts nowadays. Masuk toilet pun nak ambik gambaq. Nak bagi hilang mengantuk. Saja la nak compare my plus sized model body ni dengan gambaq dalam IC cheq yang extra tembam tu. And not forgetting, the tie.........

Before I forget, thank you Man for coming. I'm grateful sebab ada member mai teman2 hujung minggu cheq yang sunyi ni. As I said earlier, I am not really happy in KL at this point of time. I have not been myself like I used to. Cheq sungguh bahagia di suatu ketika, tapi sekejap saja keadaan berubah. I wish I could do something to make things better for me and for both of us. Tapi sebelum sampai ke tahap itu, I'm forcing myself to smile and not feeling down all the time. Dan terimakasih sebab masih ada rakan2 di sekeliling saya. Kalau umur panjang, we'll see each other for raya, if I ever go back at all.

Aku Hanya Pendatang

2008-09-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

Aku bagai seorang pendatang
Ke sempadan yang mengasingkan
Sedang dulu di sini aku
Bermesra denganmu

Kedatangan tiada sambutan
Dan senyuman tiada balasan
Langkah kaki sampai di sini
Terhenti......

Ku mencari kembali pohon hijau nan rendang
Di situlah kita berteduh
Dan sungainya bertali arus air mengalir
Bagaikan takkan berakhir
Dijadikan perlambangan
Tanda setianya percintaan dua insan

Perjalanan di tanah gersang
Tanpa sungai dan pohon rendang
Kau dan aku demikian
Diibaratkan.....

#f***ing hell...... i miss you so much

The Office

2008-09-10T19:53:00.000+08:00

Setelah tidak bekerja selama 10 hari, akhirnya cheq pun memulakan tugas baru di Kuala Lumpur. I started working yesterday, taking a public transport to work. Kan...?? Dah lama tak naik public transport, akhirnya cheq bertukar angin naik LRT pulak ke tempat kerja. At first, the coach was pretty empty, tapi after stopping at a few stations, dah jadi tin ikan sardin. Nasib baik la in the morning, so everybody masih wangi lagi. Including me la with my JPG... tolong sket bukan Fantasia by Silky Girl okay?? Hehehe matila....

I had never been to my new office before. I didn't even know which entrance to use. I had to call one of the staff's HP just to ask "En Hxxxx, nak tanya sikit buleh dak? Nak masuk kot pintu mana tatau??". Matila kan? The building is pretty old, rasanya it was built in the 70s or early 80s. So boleh expect la macamana keadaan office equipments nya. Nothing fancy, just meja2 yang maybe dah 10 tahun umurnya. Cheq tak complain sangat la sebab orang baru kan and by next year we may be moving to a newly built building nearby. *Clap... clap....clap....

*gambar hiasan. This image does not represent my new office in any way.... hehehe

Kerja........ hmm susah nak komen la awai2 ni. Cheq ni dah biasa 12 tahun begitu aktif di ofis kerana my nature of work was more on service. I dealt with customers either face to face or through phone every single day. Bila mai KL ni, kerja cheq bertukaq sket. Dah keja peringat head office kan, so considered backroom typed of work la. My nature of work now is more on project basis. Awal2 ni belum ada keja yang berat2 kena buat. 3 projects are expected to run in October and I am supposed to monitor those projects. The one who initiated the projects is leaving by middle of next month. So now cheq dok belajaq la apa yang dia dah buat and take over from thereon. InsyaAllah, semoga everything akan berjalan dengan lancar.

The Journey

2008-09-07T11:49:00.003+08:00

On friday night my sister and family came for buka puasa at out house, dengan membawa menu nasi daging yang istimewa. Sedap sangat nasi tu dan lauk pauk yang dia dah prepare beforehand. Berselera lah sikit nak berbuka, kan? And motif sangat the last day cheq berbuka di rumah barulah nak hidangkan menu yang sedap....hehehe.

And to my surprise, Zin and Man came over all the way from Penang to SP that night just to have coffee with me. Cheq mula2 ingatkan they all bergurau bila they cakap nak datang. Terharu la pulak bila they really showed up. Cha'ein who was already kat kampung pun turut serta minum2 kopi and roti bakar. Riuh rendah kat Old Town Cafe tu dengan suara kami. To all of you guys, thank you for coming and I am really going to miss you. Kalau mai KL jangan lupa let me know.

The next morning, after having only 2.5 hours of sleep (yes... I'm turning into an imsoniac), cheq pun dah bersedia untuk memulakan perjalanan. Ucap selamat tinggal to my sisters and dad, dengan berat hati dan hujan yang tetiba turun pulak pagi tu, I started my journey:

*these are only half of my stuff yang I decided to bring along. Ada banyak lagi yang I left behind for future trips. I need a walk-in closet like the one Carrie Bradshaw had in Sex & The City Movie. hehehehe...........

*sedih........... haiyo plastik sangat. Tak boleh menang award kalau camni. It took me only 4 hours to reach Plaza Tol Jalan Duta walaupun hujan sepanjang jalan. I made a few stops along the way, for toilets, not ciggie break tau...... posa tak tinggai ni.

*approaching Plaza Tol Jalan Duta.... cuaca tak best, hujan sajork. Being someone who doesn't really familiar with KL roads, cheq tersesat la pulak nak menuju ke destinasi yang sepatutnya. Tetiba saja termasuk ke Taman Danau Desa..... motif sangat kan?? hehehe... that's one of the places yang cheq tahu pegi. Dan ada orang tu gelak kat cheq bila cheq sms kat dia kata cheq sesat dan dok tunggu depan rumah dia. Always tau... hahaha. Nasib baik la my new housemate Shxxxx dengan murah hati mai ambik cheq kat situ. Thank you very much Shxxxx and I really like the place I'm staying right now.

Now, I'm here in KL and I need a moment to adapt myself living in a big city. I miss everybody back home and to my best friends in Penang, cheq dedicate the following kata2 to you :

TEMAN BICARA

Ingin ku lukiskan wajah
Malam berbintang dan bulan terang
Ingin ku gambarkan kisah
Apa yang tersirat di jiwa riang
Sekadar menyatakan rasa
Pada mereka yang memahami

Kepada siapa?
Kepada siapa?
Pada siapa teman untukku menyata sesuatu
Kepada siapa?

Ingin ku dendangkan lagu
Bersama riuh kicauan burung
Ingin ku mendaki tinggi
Mengorak dari di kala sunyi
Sayangnya aku yang sendiri

Kepada siapa?
Kepada siapa?
Pada siapa teman untukku menyata sesuatu
Pada siapa?
Tempat hendakku
Tempat mengadu teman bicara seakan membisu..........

Malasnya......

2008-09-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

Terlebih dahulu cheq nak ucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadan Al-Mubarak kepada semua umat Islam yang sedang berpuasa di hari ketiga ini. Semoga senantiasa diberkati Allah dan dimurahkan rezeki. As for me, I'm still struggling and adjusting myself to the eating habits during Ramadan. Tiap-tiap tahun, the first few days ni agak sukar sebab selalu kena diarrhea. Being a person who suffers from gastric, cheq perlu beberapa hari untuk adjust sebab perut penuh dengan acid dan angin. So anything cheq makan waktu sahur, mesti akan "keluar" semula not long after that.

Dan satu lagi masalah cheq is that kalau cheq bangun sahur, I can't go back to sleep afterwards. Ini buat cheq mengantuk sangat in the office. Nasib baik la ni cheq cuti, so okaylah sikit puasa kat kampung ni. Furthermore, Ramadan and Syawal do not mean much to me anymore these few years. Since my mom passed away, Hari Raya is just a starting point for me to eat during day time. Kekadang tu, cheq hanya tido depan TV by noon. Orang datang ke tak, cheq pun tak sedar. Last year's Ramadan was the worst among all, for some obvious reasons. Satu cabaran besar buat cheq, going through puasa and personal problems at the same time. This year it seems like history is repeating itself and I'm trying to be strong. If it is not for my dad, I don't have any eagerness to come back home for Hari Raya later this month.

Okay enough about that. La ni cheq rasa malas sangat nak bersiap sedia nak pindah ni. Barang2 masing berteraboq kat sana sini di kampung ni. My dad pulak yang kalut dok remind me to do this and that. Seriously, I'm not really looking forward to go, especially during this fasting month. Lihatlah sendiri gambar2 berikut :

*baju2 dan seluar2 masih di ampaian (....ampaian ke?? Ani... angkat baju di ampaian...hari mau hujan.... hehehe)

*sesetengah baju cheq sumbat je dalam almari. Who cares kan?? cheq saja yang nak pakai....

*alat2 kecantikan diri pun masih berselerak, belum berkemas. Belum ada motivasi diri nak bergerak buat semua ni

*tapi yang penting, cheq dah siap potong rambut bagai.... perut dah kempis sket (*matila topless for the blog).... and the best of all, see my tanning line. Padahal tak pi sunbathing mana2 pun dalam masa terdekat ni.

*and keja baru belum start tapi dah siap shopping2 sket untuk pakaian keja kat sana. Over sangat kan....??

Missing You

2008-09-03T00:15:00.005+08:00

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly......"

I'm missing you like crazy
I think I'm going mad
I simply can't stop thinking
of the special times we had.

Each moment lasts an hour
Each hour lasts a day
The clock is ticking slowly
Just because you went away.

I need you here beside me
I just want to see your face
To feel your precious heartbeat
And be lost in your embrace.

I gaze out of the window
And look up at the moon
I play the waiting game
And pray you'll be here soon.

They say hope springs eternal
Well I only hope it's true
For I can't bare the emptiness
That comes from missing you.

Breathe Again

2008-08-30T13:23:00.002+08:00

Have you wondered how it feels
When it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just
Have to start anew
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little
Cry a little
Live a little more

I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go
But life still moves on
With a bit of luck
It's a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life's replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn........

Farewell, My Friends......

2008-08-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today marked the last day of my service at our SP's office. Although it has not been that long i.e. 1 year and 10 months, it has definitely been the most enjoyable place to work at. Sememangnya my office is just 10 minutes drive from my house, ditambah pula dengan staff yang ramah dan baik, I had so much fun working here. It was pretty sad to say goodbye to everybody. I was almost in tears when my staff and the rest of the colleagues said that they were going to miss having me around. And believe me, I will feel the same. Tepat jam 5.30 petang, I was walking towards my car with files and bags in my hands. Sedih sangat...........

This was given to me by the staff as a token of appreciation, sempena perpindahan cheq ke tempat yang baru nanti. I was so touched by this gift and I love it very much. Ia adalah ayat Qursi yang selalu kita baca dan sesuai digantung di dinding rumah. Tiada hadiah yang sebaik ayat-ayat atau surah-surah suci Al-Quran one could ask for. From the bottom of my heart, thank you very much for the lovely gift.

Semalam, staff tempat cheq bekerja telah organise satu farewell party for me. Well, it was not really a party. It was just a makan-makan thing that we always had, if one got a "surat cinta" i.e. transfer letter from HR. And of course, I got the chance to give my farewell speech (tak suka sangat..... takut emo pulak). Everything went on fine, no emo-emo...... no tears..... and no long winded speeches. And we had the following food, courtesy of party planners, Intan & Mira :

As I said earlier, I'm going to miss each and everyone at the office, especially those who were reporting direct to me. Thank you for giving me support all these years. We learned so much from each other, regardless of our seniority or superiority. To my new Head of Dept, I hope that I have given you enough guidance on the trend of business in SP and our clients. Although I've known you for less than 3 weeks, it has been a pleasure working with you. I believe that you can bring something new to the place, for better advancement and systematic working system. And not forgetting to my replacement, good luck to you. I'm sure you'll do just fine. Goodbye all....... we'll see each other again some other time.

Jalan-Jalan Jumpa Kawan

2008-08-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

When friends got to know that I would be leaving soon, they requested to meet up for meals. For old time sake katernya. Memang betoi pun, some of them cheq tak jumpa for years. Even one of my best friends, Bad, cheq tak jumpa since the day he got married. Kalau hitung balik boleh kata dah 9 bulan. We talk on the phone regularly and email almost everyday, tapi dah lama tak bersua muka.

So yesterday I made a trip to Penang just to meet up with all of them. I tried to keep to my promise and I did. Lagipun I took a break from work for 2 days, it was about time to jejak kaki kat Penang Island yang cheq tak pi since March. The first stop was Queensbay Mall. I had nothing much to buy, so just walked around the mall to kill some time until my friends finished with their work. Perut lapar, singgah makan sikit kat kedai around the corner. (*matila.... corner ke?)

Some cafe latte with chocolate chip muffin. Gemukla cheq lepas ni. Diam tak diam cheq berjaya habiskan the delicious muffin sambil tengok gelagat orang2 Penang dan 5 batang Marlboro Lights dalam masa setengah jam. Hmmm..... that shows how much I enjoy smoking lately. Puasa dah dekat, so smoke puas2 katernya.

Habis makan, tangan terasa gatal la pulak nak swipe credit card. So shopping la apa lagi. Managed to get a few shirts and other stuff for myself. And of course la, I made a stop at my favourite part of a mall i.e. perfume counter. Hehehe... luckily my hand belum cukup gatal untuk beli another perfume. Finally, orang2 yang ditunggu buat kemunculan kat mall tu. Ronda punya ronda, we ended up at another eating spot.

*Man had mee kari. Sedap sangat nampak apa yang dia makan ni.

*nasi lemak for me. Tak mengira pagi, tengahari atau malam

*assam laksa for Bad. Dap......dap....dap....

It was fun to meet up again with good friends after so long. A lot of catching up over dinner and we also talked about future plans etc. I am going to miss this and do not know when we'll ever meet up again. Thanks Bad, Man and Zin for turning up, out of your busy schedules. We'll meet again someday, either in Penang or KL. Keep sending the emails to me everyday dan jangan delete my name na from the list?? Hehehe....

Today, I picked up my ex-colleagues from the office for lunch. We headed to Soh Tow Lane newly built foodcourt which I'd never been to. I never knew it exist in the first place. It reminded me of a foodcourt located just opposite Low Yatt Plaza at Bukit Bintang. Dulu masa cheq keja kat situ tadak la pulak tempat tu. Nak makan pun susah. La ni eating place berlambak2 la pulak kan?? The lunch was very pleasant but I didn't take any pic for this blog. Terlupa la pulak. Thank you to Wxxxxx, Gxxx xxx, Lxxx and Lxxxa for belanja-ing me lunch today. It should have been the other round. Cheq yang ajak, orang lain pulak belanja. Anyway, cheq singgah sat kat my old office, jumpa kawan2 and old bosses kat situ, peluk cium semua (hehehe..... propah saja tau.... no kissing or hugging took place.... haram) and said goodbye.

Masa atas feri nak balik ke mainland, terasa emo la pulak. Nasib baik ada Madonna and her Candy Shop accompanying me at the time. Terubat la jugak kan? The last stop was Prai. Jumpa kawan2 ofis lama kat situ. Gossip here and there. Nak balik pun hujan lebat, Allah saja yang tahu. So borak2 sampai dah tak tau apa nak borak. Yang penting I am very happy today, all of the people I met had claimed that I look slimmer now. It seems that my promise to someone that I will get slimmer by Hari Raya is following the right track. InsyaAllah, by Hari Raya, lagi la meletop. *matila statement tak hengat. In fact now, I can fit into my skinny jeans that I put aside long time ago. Hehehe.....

*alang2 dah sampai Prai, I made a stop at my favourite DVD shop and I got all these (The Happening, Sex & The City Movie, What Happens In Vegas, Hancock, You Don't Mess With The Zohan and Kylie Minogue-White Diamond Live in Sydney). It completes my day :)

The Letter

2008-08-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

The letter was finally here last friday. I'll be officially working in KL early next month. Benci tau, tak dan nak tunggu raya ibarat kater. But I'll be taking some unrecorded leave just to sort out a few things here and also in KL before I start working. Ye la kan, nak kemas rumah, cover mattresses, simpan apa yang patut, buang apa yang patut, terminate ASTRO's subscription, bayar bil api air etc. Leceh betul kan? I hate moving.

Having said that, my primary concern right now is my dad. Who is going to look after his welfare? Who's going to take him to clinic/hospital if he gets sicks at 4 o'clock in the morning? What happens if his prostate swells again? And knowing that my two sis are in the waiting list for Haji this year, that worries me a lot. Makan minum dia, terurus ke nanti? Thinking about all these, brings tears to me eyes.

I was scared of his reaction when I broke the news to him about my transfer. Surprisingly, he didn't say much about this. He wants me to go...... work comes first katernya. I hope other siblings can look after him better than me. Tak de la lagi anak lelakinya yang nak melalak dalam bilik hari2 dan jadi teman dia watching TV at night. Since my mom passed away, I became closer to him. I hate to leave him here. I'm sure after this, he will make frequent trips to my brother's place at Subang Jaya :)

I have not decided where to stay in KL, although friends have made offers to arrange something for me. I am very thankful to them, even though I may not be close to some of them. Sifat prihatin mereka amatlah dihargai. My mind is not there yet, and I have a lot of other things to settle here. I'm sure I'll work it out somehow, even though I may end up at hotels for the first few days. I'll be fine..... I have friends, relatives and a brother there.

Esok cheq cuti for two days. Bukan tujuan untuk mengundi di Permatang Pauh, tapi to meet up with my close friends and ex-colleagues in Penang. Dah nak pindah ni kan, nak bid farewell la. It is not going to be a one or two month attachment, but a permanent one. The only time when I can see all of them is during weekdays where everybody should be in the office. So you all semua kat Penang/Prai tu..... cepat bentang carpet merah...!!!

Melawan Kesepian

2008-08-22T19:06:00.002+08:00

Apapun yang terjadi
Berjalanlah tanpa henti
Air mata tertahan
Waktu untuk dijatuhkan

Nanti kita kan tahu
Betapa bijaknya hidup
Sepahit apa pun ini
Pelajaran yang bererti

Semoga kepergianmu
Tak akan merubah apa pun
Semoga mampu ku lawan
Kesepianku............

Tangs Uols..........

2008-08-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

When i came to the office this morning, there was an email from one of my closest friends and the most poetic one, Zin. It was very sweet of him to write a short poem for me, as a gift nak berhijrah ke KL ni. Haiyo.... terharu sangat. So, I decided to post it in my blog.

To Zin, thank you very much for the poem and warm wishes. I am going to miss you and your little goodie bags you always carry around. Tak dak la lagi orang nak mai rumah cheq, bawak bag sampai 10 dan kemas barang2 dan masuk balik ke dalam bag2 tu. Hehehe.... that was fun watching you mengemas barang sendiri kat rumah orang. And to all of my friends, especially Gossip Gang in our daily email chain, thank you for standing by me in good and bad times. Appreciate your supports and advice, even though sometimes I do not follow what you guys advise me to do. Thank you for the wishes. It's not a goodbye, we'll see each other again.

Zin (hehehe......... *matila)

SELAMAT BERHIJRAH XXX SXXXXX

wajah wajah kamu

ukir senyum di wajahku

semua teristimewa

terima tulus kasih

tak terucap

sapa aku di jalanan

andai langit kita bertemu

bekalkan aku rindu

Buat ikat persahabatan.

by : Zin

A New Chapter, A New Beginning

2008-08-20T08:05:00.001+08:00

Hi bloggers.....!! I'm back and I'm writing again. After all, I have more time to myself now. I quit the last round and I did what I said I was going to do. And since now I'm about to enter a new phase of my life, I find myself writing again.

Although I may be the unluckiest person in relationships, I am not giving up. Some people may say if you love a person that much, let the person go. To me a relationship is not established overnight. Love is not nurtured in a day. A true friendship lasts forever. I have one true love and I still have faith in it. I'm keeping it that way. InsyaAllah, someday somehow our paths will cross again.

Last 2 weeks, my big bosses from KL came down to visit us. Biasala kalau dah turun tu, macam2 la tak puas hati. Ada saja nak komen on our place. It is very seldom for them to come down for a visit. Bila datang tu bolehla tengok sikit our working condition yang teruk tu. Anyway, we had a short discussion between Hajah XXXXX, Cxxxxx and me. After all, I had been running the place for the whole 2 months on my own. Only a day after that, my new Head reported for duty. Apparently, the two bosses were impressed with my knowledge, experience and capabilities and they offered me an opportunity to venture into new things. But I had to be in either Kuala Terengganu or Kuala Lumpur. Given a choice between these two places, I would rather choose KL. Well, I'm not really keen to go to KT... no offense to orang pantai timur ye?? Cheq pun lahir kat situ jugak.

Well, it was not confirmed until last Monday. My new Head suddenly called me up at 9 pm to inform me to get ready for KL. OMG....... it finally came true. I am very reluctant to leave Kedah. I've been working in northern region for my entire career life and now cheq nak mencuba nasib di ibunegara pulak. Nervous jugak. But I know I am stronger than that. I'll be fine..... a new day has come.